Udasiyan tu zindagi ka hissa hain, zinda rehna hai tu pareshaniyon aur udasiyon say larna parta hai. Phir youn huwa kay wu din bhi agaya jab mujhey daftar jana shuru karna tha. Raat ko hi sab tayari mukamal kar kay main apnay bister per ja leta. Zehen na janay kya kya soch raha tha. Khair in sab tensions aur pareshaniyon kay bawajud, dil main aik ajeeb si khushi ka samaa tha. Suraj aaj phir apni aab-o-taab say chamak raha tha. Garmi ki shidat apnay urooj per thi. Tayyar huwa tu abba ji nay parh kay dam kar diya, aur maa ki duain liye nikal para main. Bus stop per gaya tu aaj bus bhi jaldi hi mil gaye, aur main youn jald hi apni manzil-e-maqsood tak pohonch gaya. Wu mera pehla din tha, upper gaya tu reba say salam dua kay baad, mujhey mera computer aur desk dikha diya gaya. Mujhey ju desk diya gaya wahan pehlay say dher saray kaaghaz aur dusray istimaal ki cheezain bikhri pari thi. Mera kaam yahin say shuru huta tha. Main utha aur dheray dheray us desk ki safayee shuru ki. Hum teen logon ka aik hi post kay liye chunao huwa tha, aur wu tha editorial assistant ki post. Main safayee kar kay abhi baitha hi tha kay meri nazar samnay paray kuch international magazines per pari. Mainey un main say do PC magazines uthaye aur parhta raha. Phir reba nay mujhey bulaya aur kuch rules aur regulations samjhnay lagi. Mujhey do kaghaz diye gaye jin per editing kay rules likhay huwe they, aur mujhey ye taakeed ki gaye kay ye mujhey rat lenay hain. Mujhey ye bhi batay gay a kay in kay baghair main kuch nahin kar paunga. Main wu kaghaz liye apnay desk per agaya aur aathwi jammat kay bachay ki tarhan usay yaad karnay ki bajaye, samjhna shuru kiya. Mujhey kuch hi waqt laga aur youn mairay ghar janay ka waqt huwa. Daftar main pehla din guzar kar kaafi khushi huwe, ye meri peshwarana zindagi ka pehla din tha. Phir youn huwa kay din maheenun main badaltay rahay. Kaam main maharat tu aik maheenay baad hi hug aye thi. Yahan mairay buhut say achay dost bhi banay, jin main Khayam, Junaid, verdah saray fehrist hain. Humain ab wahan kaam kartay kartay aik saal hunay ko tha. Aik baat tu main batana hi bhul gaya, wu ye kay, kaam kay sath sath mainey apnay bachelor main admission bhi ley rakha tha. Ye bachelor main Pakistan ki aik online university say kar raha tha, jahan mujhey ye faida mil jata tha kay main apni naukri kar sakta tha aur jab imtihaanon ka waqt aata tu main editor say chutti lay kar imtehaan dey aata. Youn raat bhar parhna aur subha kaam per chalay jana. Din kattay rahay, aur pata hi na chala kay kab is masroofiyat main aik saal beet gaya. Main aksar ye sochta kay kya zindagi isi kaam kay liye dig aye thi, kay yahan aao, majburion aur pareshanion say mukabla karo, jis main har hugi ya jeet hugi, ye janay baghair is maidan-e-jang main utar jao, aur umr bhar aik justaju main guzar do, yan phir iskay aur bhi maqaasid they, per soch aakhir kahan tak sath deti. Ab youn lagnay laga tha kay jaisay main aik taweel arsay say safar main hun, aur buhut chalnay kay baahis aeriyon main ab dard huna shuru hu chukka tha jaisa, taangon main dam khatam huta mehsus hunay laga tha, bus aik hi soch puray wajud per hawi thi, kay ye jis manzil ki janaib rawan dawan hun, kya usay dekhna naseeb huga bhi kay nahin. Is justaju nay itna masroof kar dala kay waqt kay guzarnay ka andaaza hi na huwa. Na kisi dost say baat hu paati na mulakat. Wu yehi justaju thi jis nay mujhey is duniya say kaat rakha tha. Mairi zindagi main kaafi shaks mairay kareeb rahay, yahan tak kay safar main kaafi chehray achay lagay, kaafi chehron kay peechay chupay dushmani kay aasaar bhi dikhayee diye. Maira halka-e-yaran buhut hi chota raha hai hamesha, kuch achay dost mujhey khonay ka dukh aaj bhi hai, per shayed pashtawa nahin. Waqt aur halaat ka yehi takaza tha aur humain alag huna hi tha. Shayed meri isi justaju kay baais main unhain kho baitha tha, yan wu dost tu buhut achay they, be-inteha chahnay walay, per shayed wu mujhey kabhi samjh hi na paye, aur shayed meri is jado-johad main rukawat bantay rahay. Unki kami tu aaj buhut mehsus huti hai per unhain ley kar main udas nahin huta. Meri justaju ju hai kuch kar dikhanay ki wu rawan hai waqt kay sath sath.
Dosti bhi kya cheez hai, na hu tu wajud adhura, aur hu tu zaat mukamal.
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