MUJH MAIN JU SHAKS REHTA HAI......(Aathvi Qist)

Dost hi they ju mairi zindagi main rang bhartay rahay, warna tu ye wu sehra tha jahan barish ki aik boond ko tarsti hai matti. Is baar jab main likhnay baitha hun tu mairi himmat aur haunslay kuch buland nahin hain. Youn mehsus huta hai jaisay dil ko ksi nay salkhon main kaid kar rakha hu. Sanson ki rawani main bhi jaisay ab khalal parh raha hu. Meri sochon per bus aik hi soch hawai hai, kay aakhir kitni baar gir kay uthaunga apnay aap ko. Mujhey talash kiski hai, meri manzil aakhir door kyun hai itni, aakhir ye kaisa imtehaan hai kay jiska nateeja nahin janta main, aakhir ye kaisi justaju hai, main jitna bhagta hun ye utni door kyun chali jaati hai manzil meri. Kaamptay haath, udas lehjay, bheegi bheegi si sochain aur ye pareshaniyan ab kyun hain aakhir. Jawab tu mairay paas kabhi bhi na huwa in sab baton ka, per sochain har pal sath sath rahin. Aik din youn huwa kay mujhey apni naukri chor dena pari. Halaat kuch aisay they kay jin ki bina per mujhey aik saal baad wahan say rukhsat lena hi pari. Ab phir say youn mehsus huta tha jaisa wohi zindagi nay aik baar phir say mazaq kiya hai mairay sath, meri himmat maira haunsla toot sa gaya tha. Us din tu abba nay bhi aakay kandhay per haath rakh kar kaha, beta pareshan mat huna, youn tu hu hi jata hai, Khuda ki zaat bari raheem-o-kareem hai, aik dar band tu so khul jatay hain. Bazaahir tu wu buhut hi mazbut dikhayee detey they, per main ye achi tarhan janta tha kay unko bhi dukh tha, kamzur hu chukay they wu andar say. Wu raat buhut bhaari thi, mujhey aisa lag raha tha kay jaisay zindagi aik baar phir usi maur per aakay ruk gaye jahan say aik saal pehlay ye safar shuru kiya tha. Raat bhar buhut roya, aankhain thi kay thakti nahin thi, aur aansu they kay ruktay nahin they, aik ye aansu hi tu they kay jinhun nay hamesha mujh say aur meri aankhun say wafa ki, sath khuub nibhaya, aksar chalay aatay ye maira haal puchnay, shayed mujhey tanha nahin dekh patay they. Sukun ki talaash main nakaami huwee tu Khuda kay huzur sajdarez huwa, tu apna aap buhut chota mehsus huwa, zar-o-kataar aankhain ronay lagi, jism laraznay aur kaamnay laga. Mujhey zarurat thi aaj shayed kisi aisay maujzay ki, jiskay hunay say meri kaifiyat badal jaati, sukun mil jata, meri sochon ko karar aajata. Is zindagi ki daur main khoya insane kabhi kabar itna majbur hu jata hai kay usay apna aap buhut chota lagta hai. Khuda ki zaat jab apnay banday ko apni shafqat aur muhabbat ki lapait main le leti hai tu youn lagta hai jaisay har dard har zakhm bhar gaya hun, har pareshani hal hug aye hu. Isi sukun ki talash main tha us raat main, sujuud aur ibaadat nay ab kuch kuch halka kar dala tha wajud ko mairay. Wu kitna beniyaaz hai, kitna raheem-o-kareem hai, wu zaat kitni azeeem hai. Us raat sab karnay kay baad aankh lag hi gaye. Naye suraj kay sath utha tu man ko buhut halka paya, aik naye umeed liye nikal para. Ali bhai ki taraf gaya tu wu muskura kar dekhnay lagay mujhey, aur kehnay lagay kyun pareshan hutay hu, ye naukriyan tu aani jaani cheez hain, ye na sahi tu koi aur sahi. Din guzartay rahay, main CV banks bharta raha buhut si multi-nationals kay. TV channels say ley kar aik call centre tak sab jagah bhej dali CV apni. Aik nayee talaash kay liye nikal tu para tha per ye bhi janta tha kay is juey main haar yan jeet ka kuch pata nahin.

Gir kay sambhalna aur sambhal kar phir say gir jana, buhut takleef deta hai.