Aglay roz Eid-ul-Fitr thi. Phone per Rahma sahiba nay mujh say 2 sawaal puchay, pehla kuch is tarhan tha kay, hamari information minister ka naam bataiye, un dinno sherry rehman thi, mainey keh dala, jis per wu muskura di, aur kehnay lagi kay aaj ki bari khabar kaunsi hai, mainey kaha, rahma sahiba, mainey aaj subah say khabrain nahin sunni wu isliye kay kal eid hai aur main busy raha ghar kay kaam kaaj aur safaiyon main. Is per unhon nay pucha tu kal ki bari khabar kyat hi, mainey foran Quetta main huwe dhamakay kay baray main bata diya. Wu kehnay lagi kay aapko Karachi office say interview call ajayegi kuch dinno main tu interview denay chalay jaiyega, mainey haan keh kar phone rakh diya. Mujhey zindagi main do cheezon say hamesha be-inteha nafrat rahi hai, aik shak aur doosra intezaar. Is baar phir main aik phone call ka intezaar karnay laga, din kaafi tezi say tabdeel hutey rahay per khamoshi sic hah gayee, main har roz intezar karta kay shayed aaj ajaye call, shayed kal ajaye, aur isi kashmkash main do haftay guzar chukay they. Aakhir kaar mainey tang aakar aik din Karachi office phone kar hi diya. Kisi umair naami shaks nay call uthayee tu mainey Lahore wali call ka hawala detay hue pucha kay aakhir kab bulaya jayega mujhey interview kay liye, umair nay mujhey kaha kay wu pooch kar batayega. Aglay roz main subha jab utha tu phone ko bajtay huwe paya, mainey foran phone uthaya tu wu aik khatoon thi jihon nay mera interview time fix kar diya tha aur tareeh bhi bata di thi. Main aik baat yahan kehta chalun, jis say shayed kaafi log ikhtilaaf Karin per mera is baat per pukhta yakeen hai. Main ye manta aur kehta hunk ay duniya main umeed naam ki koi cheez nahin huti, ju huta hai wu maujza hai, khuda ki taraf say likha gaya hai, yan tu hu jata hai yan nahin. Is baar khuda kay is maujzay per mujhey yakeen nahin araaha tha kay mujhey interview call aachuki thi. Mujhey apnay Rab aur apnay upper poora bharosa tha kay is baar main zaruru kamyaab lautunga. Phir aakhir kaar wu din bhi aahi gaya jab mujhey Karachi office jana tha. Main raat bhar soch main dubaa raha per is baar mujhey aik ajeeb sa itmenan tha, kay jaisay mujhey maloom hu kay aglay roz kya hunay wala hai. Main ab takdeer say larna seekh gaya tha, mujhey ye bhi maloom tha kay mujhey agar ye naukri na mili tu aur koi dar mairay liye khula dikaye na deta tha, per najanay ye kaisa ajeeb sa itmenan tha. Khuda kay huzur sajda-rez hunay kay baad mainey bister ka rukh kiya, aur lait gaya. Buhut si sochon main doobay oobay najanay kab aankh lagi ye pata hi na chala mujhey. Chiryan aur kaway chehtay sunay tu mehsus huwa kay din charh chukka hai, ankh khuli tu khasa waqt guzar chukka tha aur interview main buhut kam waqt reh gaya tha. Main foran say uth khara huwa aur tayyari shuru kar di. Naha dho kar kaprey pehnay, aur ghar say niklatay huwe waldain ki duain li. Main nikal para Rah-e-Haq per, kay jahan youn mehsus hu raha tha kay jaisay main aik sipaahi hun, ju apnon ki khaatir jaan ki par kiye baghair larnay aur marnay kay liye tayyar hu. Apnay andar aik josh aur jazba liye main chalta gaya, bus main sawar huwa aur manzil-e-maqsood tak ja pohoncha. Andar daakhil hutey hi reception per bata dia kay maira aaj interview hai. Mujhey waiting room main intezaar karnay ko kaha gaya. Main seedha batayi gayee jagah per ja kay baith gaya aur intezaar karnay laga. Ye intezaar kay chand lamhay mujh main bechaini barha rahay they. Main us waiting room kay sheesay ki deewaar say bahir ka mauhal dekhnay laga. Daftar main itni chehal pehel thi kay waqai main ye kisi aam daftar say hat kar mehsus huta tha, aur waqai hi aik TV ka daftar lagta tha. Main baithay intezaar hi kar raha tha kay achnak samnay say aik shaks haath main files pakray huwe aata dikhayee diya. Youn maloom huta tha kay HR ka koi senior zaeef clerk hai jisay mera interview karnay ko bheja gaya hai. Wu andar daakhil huwe tu main uth khara huwa aur salam kiya unhain, unhon nay muskura kar jawab detey huwe mujhey baith janay ko kaha. Main baith gaya aur wu mairay samnay wali kursi per baith gaye. Mujh say naam pata puchnay kay baad ju pehla sawal kiya wu kuch is tarhan tha, “Apnay baray main bataiye mujhey Humair”, main ye sawal suntay hi shuru hu gaya, aur wu sab kuch keh dala ju main bahpan say ley kar us din tak karta aya tha. Wu mujhey aur meray confidence ko dekh kar muskuratey rahay aur mairi baton ko ghaur say suntay rahay.
Zindagi ki is bhaag daur main hum aksar ye bhul hi jatay hain kay humain talaash karna hai apnay yahan hunay ka maqsad, per hum tu pait ki khaatir apna wajud, apna sab kuch luta detay hain, aur aik ajeeb justaju main kho jatay hain. Ajeeb hai ye zindagi aur iskay khel saray.
