MUJH MAIN JU SHAKS REHTA HAI......(Paanchvi Qist)

Ghurbat tu aik azaab thehri. Is zamanay kay naseheb-o-faraz nay insaan ko kisi kaam ka nahin chora. Halaat ko agar dekhain tu har taraf hirs-o-hawas kay badal chaye dikhayee daingay. Khoon kay pyasay ye apnay logon nay apni hi is jannat ko ujaar diya. Isi dehshatgardi aur loot maar nay mulk ko aaj tak taraqqi say rokay rakha hai, ye wu sarzameen hai jahan qudrat kay baawan phal, chaar mausam, aur beshumaar un-ghinat aisi naimatain hain kay jinko ginnay baith gaya tu shayed khasa waqt beet jaye. Sawal tu bus ye hai kay itna sab kuch hunay kay ba-wajud yahan ghurbat aur mayusi kyun hai. Kyun itney naujawan ju abhi jawani main kadam rakhtay hi hain tu khudkushi jaisi lanat ko apna letay hain aur hamesha kay liye anmol zindagi ko apnay hi hathon khatm kar detay hain. Haan ye mulk buhut hi khubsurat hai per afasos is mulk kay naujawanon nay hamesha apni panah-gaah dosrey mulkon ko banaya, aur iski traqqi ki taraf kabhi dehan na diya. Mainey is muashray aur iskay nizaam say jahan kisi baat kay hunay ka koi imkaan nahin tha, buhut si umeedain laga rakhi thi. Phir youn huwa kay aik din aik call mairey cell per aaye, uthanay per pata chala kay wuhi IT magazine ki editor Reba Shahid ka phone tha. Mujhey aglay hi roz interview kay liye bula liya gaya tha. Us raat neend nay khair-baad keh diya aur chor kar kahin aur kisi ki ankhon ka hissa ban gaye. Main raat bhar jagta raha, tarhan tarhan kay khayalat zehen main aatay rahay. Mairi zindagi ka pehla pehla interview tha jisay mainey har haal main pass karma tha, aur ye naukri ka sunehri mauqa zayaa hunay say rokna tha. Main uth khara huwa, 2 ghantay laga kar jootay polish kar kay aik konay main rakh diye, ab baari thi kapray istaree karnay ki, mainey apni sab say achi shirt aur pant nikal li aur istaree karnay laga, dil main aik ajeeb si ghabrahat thi, dharkanain jaisay sawaal kar rahi hun. Aakhir ye waqai hu raha hai yan ye koi khuwaab ha, aisi sochon nay saans lena dushwaar kar rakha tha. Mujhey tu ye bhi nahin maloom tha aglay roz kya hunay wala tha. Suraj ki kirnain khirki say hutey huwe kamray jab girnain lagi aur ghantay minton ki rafter say guzarnay lagay tu mainey tayyari karma shuru ki. Naha dho kar tayyar hunay kay baad, abba aur amma ji ki duain liye main ghar say nikal para. Kadam jaisay jam say gaye hun, chalna dushwaar, chaltay chaltay bus stop tak pohonch tu bus ka intezar karnay laga. Aisi halat pehlay tu kabhi na huwe thi jaisay us roz bus stop per kharay kharay huwee. Aakhir bus aahi gaye aur main sawar hu gaya, bas parh chahrnay kay baad ye mehsus huwa kay jaisay pura shehar INTERVIEW hi dainay jar aha hu, janwaron ki tarhan ghussay huwe un logon main say aik nay apna paaun mairay paun per rakh diya, yani saari raat ki ju mehnat thi jootay polish karnay ki wu raaigaan gayee. Ghussay nay apni lapait main ley liya mujhey, aur mairay sir ko ghumnay main zayada waqt na laga, baharhaal apnay ghussay per kaaboo patay huwe main aik seat ju khali hu chuki thi, per baith gaya aur stop aanay tak chup chaap aankhain band kiye durood-sharif ka wird karta raha. Chaheen Complex ki aawaaz lagi tu main chonk kar khara huwa aur utar gaya. Puch puch kar aakhir main us building tak pohonch hi gaya ju mairi manzil thi. Andar daakhil hunay hi laga kay secutiry guards nay rok liya, shanakht kay baad mujhey VISTORS’ CARD dey diya gaya aur ye bhi bata diya gaya kay upper doosri manzil per sab say aakhri karma huga. Main dabay paaon, atakti saanson say seerhiyan charhta raha aur us kamray tak pohonch gaya. Ye aik kaali dewaron wala karma tha jiskay darwazay per aik buhut bari marki bani huweee thi. Andar ja kay baitha tu us magazine ki editor Reba nay mujh say puchna shuru kiya. Main ab thora sa behtar mehsus karnay laga tha. Reba kay sawalon kay jawab deta raha, aur aakhir aik sawal ju mujh say pucha gaya wu computer languages kay baray main tha, jiskay jawab main mainey keh diya kay main ismain buhut bura raha hun hamesha aur fail bhi. Reba ye bat sun kar hasnay lagi au rkehnay lagi, wah bhai tum tu sachay aadmi niklay, zara bhi na socha tum nay kay ye aik interview hai aur jis magazine kay liye tum kaam karnay aye hu wu aik IT magazine hai. Main muskura dia, jiskay baad mujhey reba sahiba nay ye keh kar janay ko kaha kay main jald say jald kab shuru kar sakta hun. Mairi khushi ki inteha na thi. Rabbul Izzat ka jitna shukr ada karta kam tha.

Khushi bhi ajeeb cheez hai, na hu tu andhera aur gar hu tu ujala hi ujala.