ZINDA HU INSAAN AUR MAQSAD NA HU KOI....

Aur main haarta chala gaya, haarta chala gaya sab, khaamoshi aesi thi kay apne aap say khaufzada hunay laga man, dil kay sab raste ab soonay soonay aur veeran paray thay, aesa maloom huta tha jesay barson say in par koi na aaya hu, sochain bhi tu ab tanha aur khaali thi bikul wesay jesay banjar zameen per kabhi fasal na ugti hu, baat yahan par khatm na huwee, mujhay ab mustakbil ki aik taweel musaafat dikhayee denay lagi, ju zakhmi paun liye teh karna thi, tu phir kya tha, main chal tu diya per phir hosh na raha, aur ghalt faislon ki bheer charh gaya main.

Farq sirf itna raha kay dil tu pehlay bhi dharakta tha par ab ju dharkan thi iska koi maqsad na tha

WU SHAKS AUR HAMZAAD USKA.....

Aankhon main nami bhi thi aur labon per muskurahat bhi, najanay kis safar per chal diya tha wu, main khub samajh chuka tha uskay mizaaj ko ab, wu aesa hargiz na tha bas kaanton bari zindagi nay usay aesa bana dala tha, aaj aik muddat kay baad mujhey khayal aaya uskay chehray ko dekhnay ka, tu aankhain khuli ki khuli reh gayee, us berang veeraan chehray par chaayee khamoshi buhut kuch keh rahi thi, usay dekha tu ye mehsus huwa kay wakt sab badal dalta hai, ye wohi chehra tha ju kabhi bine muskuraye reh na pata tha, har aik ko cherna aadat si thi us shaks ki par ab tu jesay sab khatm hu chuka tha, uski zindagi main sab zawaal ki jaanib gaamzan tha

Main tu hamesha say hi uskay sath raha hun, main usi shaks ka HAMZAAD hun

BAAT FAQAT ITNI SI THI.....

Ju ju bhi dooba huwa milta koshish yehi huti kay usay kinaray per laga dalun. Dhoop main chaun kesay huwa karti hai bata daalun, per is an-honi kashmakash main, main tu apna aap hi gawa betha, main ju mud'daton say apni hi talaash main raha, kesay kho diya apna aap, ye nahin janta tha. Meri tu hamesha yehi justaju rahi kay agar aik muskurahat say kisi ko sukun milta tu wu sab muskurahatain samet kar uskay damaan main daal deta. Yehi be-laus jazbaa liyay main zindagi guzarnay kay atwaar seekhta raha, aik naa khatam huna walay khel ka khilari ban gaya . Jeet na Haar kay liya khel raha tha main, main tu bas khel raha tha aik behtar kal kay liye. Kabhi kabhar insaan kisi honi ko samajh nahin pata, bas meray sath bhi kuch aesa hi huwa, main apnay atraaf kay chehron per muskurahatain bikhernay main laga raha aur itna magan hu gaya kay pata hi nahin chala kab meray andar veeraniyon nay ghar kar liya. Mujhey tu bas udaasiyon ko mitana tha, ab ki baar ye ju veeraniyan meri mehmaan ban bethi thi in say kesay jaan churata. Aik aur mahaaz khol betha bas, is baar dushman buhut hi takatwar tha, in say lartay lartay ye maloom para kay khushiyan aagar rooth jain tu unhain wapas bulana na-mumkin huta chala jata hai. Kisi had tak ab main shayed kamyaab hu chuka tha un sab chehron per muskurahatain bikhernay main, kay jinkay udaas chehray kabhi kaat khanay ko daura kartay they, per dheeray dheeray wu sab log bhi ab dur hunay lagay. Mairay andar dera daalay veeraaniyan ab meray aas paas bhi dikhayee denay lagi mujhey. Main tu najanay kab say in say larta chala araha tha. Sun tu rakha tha kay mayusi gunaah huwa karti hai, per aakhir ye kaun batayega kay jab insaan aik na khatam hunay wali justaju main laga rahay aur manzil kabhi dikhayee na dey tu kya phir bhi mayusiyon ko dost na banaya jaye? Mujhey tu ab ye lagnay laga tha kay mayusiyan kadray behtar dost ban sakti hain mujh jesay shaks ki, per phir khuda bhi yad rehta kay jis nay ye bata rakha hai kay mayusi gunaah hai, tu phir kahan jata main.

Baat faqat itni si rahi hamesha, kay main khushiyan dhundta raha aur khali wajud main veeraniyan ghar kar gayee.

HAAR KO JEET HI SAMAJHTAY RAHAY.....

Chalay tu badalnay thay ye reet riwaiyatain, ye kab maloom tha kay khud hi badal jaingay, wakt kay ghoray bhaagtay rahay aur tez tez bhaagtay rahay aur kuch bhi badal na paya, jism thakan say choor choor, himmat ab maand parnay lagi thi, per koshish jaari rahi, ummeed ki lagam thamay wakt kay ghoron per sawar rahay, aagay barhtay rahay per manzil tu jesay dur say dur huti chali gaye. Aakhir kaar himmat nay bhi jawab de dala, ab wu wakt aachuka tha kay jab auron ki tarhan chup saadh leni thi humain, sab bhool jana tha, wu sab koshishain ab chor dena thi, so wohi kiya ju wakt ka takaza tha, sawalia nighaahain Rab-ul-Izzat ki jaanib datti rahi aur main sab haar gaya

Jeet kabhi naseeb na thi aur haar kar bhi raha malaal....