Manzil ka nishan nahin tha door tak kahin, thankan ab apni kuch jagah bananay main kamyab hu chuki thi, khushi tu pehlay hi na thi wajud main apnay, tu phir umeed ko zinda rakhtay bhi tu kaisay? Mujhey hamesha yehi lagta raha hai main hasil kar lunga wu ju barson say chahta aya hun. Main ye bhi kehta chalun kay jab likhtay likhtay thak gaya main tu ji chaha kay kuch dair khuda kay beshumaar karishmaat main say aik ko parkha jayee tu nikal para apnay daftar ki chat per raat kay teen bajay, darwazay kay us paar dhundh ki chadar main lipta sab kuch buhut madham madham sa dikhaye dey raha tha. Main bahir nikal tu aya per thand is zoro-shor say par rahi thi kay shayed aglay do yan teen salon ki kasar bhi poori karnay aayee hu. Zehen aur soch kay sehra khulay tu aik shair yad aya…..aur ye shair har baar tab tab yad aata hai jab thand apnay urooj per hu. Wu kuch is tarhan kaha shayar nay “ Bahir itni sardi hai, kay aansu tak jam jatay hain”.
Umeedain saari ab maaand parnay lagi mairi, mujhey tu ye bhi yakeen na tha kay ab yad bhi ayegi uski yan nahin? Main tu naqoosh bhulta ja raha tha uskay ab kuch kuch. Taweel masaafat aur aik lamba intezar, do aisee cheezain hain kay ju insan ko buhut kamzor bana deti hain. Mairi zindagi main ye dono cheezain aik arsay say kayam kiye huwe thin. Mujhey yakeen tha kay jis raastay per main chal nikla hun wu mujhey manzil-e-maqsood tak ki rasayee zarur deyga, per aik khauf phir bhi basera kiye baitha tha dil kay kisi konay main. Hum kachi bastiyon kay log bhi kitnay ajeeb hutay hain…..na zameen apni na ghar apna, apna hutey huwe bhi ye dar rehta hai kay aaj utha dia tu kahan jaingay? Phir zindagi ki saari talkh haqeeqaton main say aik ye bhi humain sarak ki khak samjhta hai ye zamana. Hum say aksar ye sawal kia jata kay hum logon nay paya kya? Kya mukaam hasil kia? Main hamesha is sawal ki zad main aakar buri tarhan zakhmi hu jaya karta. Phir aik din mujhey iska jawab mila, ju kuch is tarhan tha kay, kya ye kam hai kay aik sufaid posh baap ka baita, kachi basti kay aik puranay tootay phootay makaan say nikal kar yahan tak pohonch gaya. Kaun hasil kar paya huga itna? Kis nay ki hugi itni justaju? Sochta tu ye lagta kay kuch bhi nahin per haan himmat zarur barhti chali gaye is aik jumlay say. Umeedain rang us waqt laaye jab mainey apna interview mulk kay aik maroof akhbaar main achay tareeqay say paas kia aur mujhey wu naukri mil gaye jismain likhat parat ka buhut kirdaar tha. Main likhta raha, liktha raha, ye nahin janta tha kay parhnay walay kitnay hain? Kaun hain? Per aik justaju thi kuch hasil karnay ki, kuch paa lainey ki. Main chalta raha is safar main, larkharaya buhut per himmat maand na pari kabhi. Kuch kar dikhanay ka ju azm lia tha usay nibhana bhi tu tha aakhir.
Hum log bhi kitnay ajeeb hain, kya kuch kar jatay hain is aarzi dunia ki daur main.
